Add it Up

Words to memorize
Words hypnotize
Words make my mouth exercise
Words all fail the magic prize ....

Anybody who knows this Violent Femmes gem Add it Up will tell you that the context of the song is simply about unrequited love at the gutter level.

That is not an issue for me at present, however I do appreciate a clever turn of a phrase, more so when I can take it out of context and apply it to something in my own reality.

The benefit for me is two-fold as far as choosing to write about that snippet of lyric here. The title of the song contains the letters a-d-d, which the search engine spiders are used to seeing on my blog. And, the song has been bouncing around in my skull all day just trying to spark some sort of dialog.

The reason why this song has been playing in my head is that I find that particular chunk of words indicative of how I sometimes feel about words, or rather, my recurring disability in communicating exactly what I mean.  I will stumble blindly at times when trying to put into words what is going on in my bubble, and sometimes hold myself to something I wrote even though I might not see it as being entirely true.

This time I have chosen to attempt a more modest approach where hyperbole, grandiosity and exuberance are not turned up to eleven. The words formulating in my head concerning the context of just how it is I'm doing on this new medication and the recent dosage increase, are somehow arriving a little more true and a little less unfounded.

The song is very clear about what the magic prize is ... I'm looking beyond the flesh to something maybe a bit more fulfilling, and trying to settle with the idea that the journey will continue to be with me all of my life.